It's monologue

11/1

After Sandy's crazy smashing, it seems the winter is approaching faster than it used to be.

Some say or predict, it maybe an extreme winter this year.

To me, it's about time to get my serious work started. 

Maybe reading a bit in between here and there if possible. There are a lot I want to pick up. 

Get myself busy and occupied while my passion seems way from me long enough. 

11/4

The more I read, the more important I feel like the translation is. 

You will always lose a quite essence from the original. 

Oh by the way, Thai tea really smells so good. 

11/6 

some waiting articles to write (no guarantee): 

*或許是消極

*蘋果奇遇記(啥東西？＝＝)

*我們都疏遠了

天外補一筆

剛不小心瞄了一下BCBG 剛上架的款式，讓我感到頗意外...... 心中忍不住默默地浮出:BCBG今年冬天是被打到了嗎？推出一系列讓我覺得很不符合他們向來一貫的設計感和品質，難道是換了設計師？差點沒讓我暈倒...＝＝

11/14

其實對於變味的友誼，還有挽不回的友情，我還是覺得是一件很令人惋惜的事情。

可是，當其中一方並沒有那樣的體認感受時，打開天窗說亮話似乎是一件讓別人難堪的舉動。

為什麼就算是再堅固的友誼，也可以在某個不經意的時間點，一瞬間變質？像是被忽略的庭園，再回頭已經雜草叢生，不知如何下手修剪。

11/21 

I feel scared to notice my heartbeat was irregular when I saw things about you, which reminds me my weakness is still there, somewhere hiding in my heart. I almost disdain myself.

It was like I thought everything is fine and gone already, but the moment of losing or gaining a few heartbeats revealed the upmost truth. My heart is more honest than my mind head. 

When and where had I given you so much power over me so long? 

I feel shame. 

11/27

You should stop caring about people who don't really care about yourself.

Maybe some say that's a bit over defensive, but it seems no point to give your sincerity to everyone. 

It is fine to be nice and friendly to common people. But when it comes to becoming closer, it needs a good judgement to weight how much you would like to give, and how much the person deserves to be given. I know I am not a saint. I treat people differently but reasonably. 

It's all just like what a good friend said " don't be too nice to everyone all the time, it may cause misunderstanding and you may hurt yourself too."

Everything starts with simplicity, then it gets complicated sooner or later -  because that's human natural. 

The more you see and hear, the simpler you want to be. 

11/29

Attened a very nice but unexpected party tonight. We chatted, laughed, ate, drank, and played around with every others. It's some nice thing I long did not have except the Thanksgiving dinner a week ago. Everyone is smiling and saying humorous things. The atmosphere is harmony and cheerful. I guess sometimes the relationship is simpler and easier when you know from the beginning that everyone is just stopping by here for a period of time, then they will keep chasing the goals in their lives. Everyone comes and goes. But, because of the instability of each person, there is unlikely you would have conflict interests with others. Because of that, sometimes I feel this kind of friendship seems more precious because I always know it is very likely you may not see the same people in my next new calss. So, What's the point to get to know a particular person better when you know you will only see the person 2-3 months, and he or she may never appear in your life anymore? Sometimes, you may even forget about them as quick as you move to another city. 

Yet, I still feel happy and nice when I met and made some special friends under this uninteresting temporary transit.

11/30

I am gonna be a deaf, I doubt. Tinnitus keeps buzzing in my years for a week already. I wish I know what causes this happening! 

Other than that, friend and I went to a mutual friend's Baby shower. It was so nice to see her again! The decoration was so cute on the party, so were the children...lol