It's monologue

4/23(Saturday)

had a great time with couple friends today.

though there were some dramatic scenarios happened through, but it was still a good day!

I got confused about few things after that day. But, hopefully, it won't influence me too much!

I will continue do things I think they are right.

Sometimes, ignore ppl thoughts may be the correct way.

What could we do if we care about others' opinion too much all the time?

Live for your own but not meaning to act as a selfish asshole. =P

4/16 (Saturday)

giving up. Thanks for letting me know those were nothing to you in the end.

I was talking to the air. How cruel you are and how foolish I am.

Let everything die in yesterday. 

Everything fads out as soon as possible.

The withdrew heart, the gray memories, pieces and pieces dropped like petal.

April 12 (Tuesday)

Sometimes, emotional sick is worse than physical sick.

I lost my power, I lost the confidence, and I lost my dignity.

It wasn't just like fever because you get immunity if you have had a fever.

But, it's really hard to get immunity from emotional sick even you get better after a while.

Maybe those lymphocytes produced by the emotional stimulation die more quickly than those realistic ones.

Insecurity, weakness, fragility, depression, frustration, hopelessness, and loneliness occupy my mind when I was not aware.

Nobody knows who should be responsible for this consquence.

Neither I could tell it clear nor others could help me get out from the damn cycling hell. 

Victimization thought. 

April 4 (Monday)

"Fashion is not something that exists in dresses only.

Fashion is in the sky, in the street,

fashion has to do with ideas,

the way we live,

what is happening."

       - Coco Chanel