It's monologue

As what i expected, 
though the book we selected is not the one i'd like to read most,
we still began to read it.
The story itself is not the type I like. To me, it's more like a love story 
than a novel i can learn and get something from.
However, sometimes it seems the author has some clever description in her book.
But seldom and short.

Like there is a sentence in prologue that i like very much.
It says,
" Why is love intensified by absence?"
And yes, it is. Absolutely and definitely.
Therefore, the intesity of solidute is shortened if the one you beloved
loves you wholeheartedly, I said.
you'd like to keep yourself busy, empty your head and mind.
All of these acts are because i don't know where the one's heart is.
I suffered, recovered, and relapsed like an endless cycling.
How could it happen?
The moment you feel be amplified with transparent emptiness.
Sip the sorrow, think like a fool,
  live as a walking zombie, no heart  no smile.
I smile, but smile can't touch my heart. 
I eat, but it's just eating to keep live.
When did it happen?

Is there a way to get rid of these as fast as i just need 
to count to three? 
pilipalapili.... then everything just gone.
I won't remember.